Humbling Reflection

Starting with my God Calling daily devotional again is a powerful thing and humbling experience. January 14... I made it two weeks into the plan to read the book on a daily basis. And that was two years ago. I am not sure that I even attempted last year. The entry for January 4th (because I am already behind) discussed not planning ahead and relying on God.

"Do not limit God at all"

"Do not plan ahead, the way will unfold step by step. Leave tomorrow's burden."

I am reading my reflection on these words from two years ago. It is hauntingly familiar. I can get upset with myself for putting myself in the exact same place on a yearly basis. For failing in my quest. Instead of chastising myself for my shortcomings, I can 

"Be of good courage and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the Lord"

I can find courage to trust God. I can behave like a child who follows without asking. Who accepts the world as is without judgement, then I can start to understand God's planning. Maybe there is a reason that I continue to get stuck on the same verse. The same point. I need to be present. I wrote about about this not just last week. 

You mean God is okay repeating himself? That he is constant and a rock for me to lean on? Oh wait, I knew all those things, but I was to busy living in tomorrow to remember it.